11:40 pm 05/09/26   no but like. tons of people have given me reason to hate them. that doesn't mean i hate everyone, although i do hate a lot of people, but it makes me lose that much fondness for people i do like. i've never forgiven anybody in my life and i have held onto grudges for years after the fact, except for one person who is my soulmate even though those don't exist. and that person hates me and will never forgive me for what i did to them, and maybe they shouldn't, i don't deserve it. am i mean?